Persistence

I know it's wrong
Not wise to latch on to an "im"possiblity
A thought too optimistic for me

There have been times of self doubt
My loyalty for the person I loved
The feeling I'd let go easily
If only I could find a way to move on

But it's been too long since I have been hanging on
Hanging on to my own needs
Failing to see they are empty hopes

I don't want to betray anyone
Least of all, the one, I believe, loves me
But tell me how I can cheat on you
It's over, there's no future, that's what you tell me
That's what I think you believe
What I think I should understand

But why do I get this feeling
Why do I feel uneasy
Why do I feel I am rushing in to something
Anticipating something that never might be a reality
Will not even exist

Tell me why do I feel I am desperate to fall in love again
Show me a reason why I shouldn't take the easy way out